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my blog is so dead and stagnant, just like my life :( sorry for those who viewed my blog without any updates from me. hahaha.

school is getting really tough. it seems like i can't take a break from studying at all, coz there're just too many things to study. neverending. i just flunked a molecular bio quiz, and next week i'm going to do that for my tcm quiz. time is so precious right now :( yet i'm still so distracted! especially at home, with the tv almost never off. it feels so painful for me to wake up in the morning too. why is it that it's so difficult to get out of bed? :( seems like sleep is never enough too. i hate to be slacking, yet i always am. dammit.

those 密密麻麻 chinese characters on my textbook drive me to sleep. seriously -.-

watched the leap years.. actually, whats so nice about it? it's kinda so-so to me only.. not realistic enough. i mean, if i were li-ann, i'll probably just forget about that man the next day. the show just didn't leave an impact on me at all :(

was at the tjc dance concert reverie IV today.. i thought the show wasn't as good as i expected.. opps :x probably coz now we're exposed to better dance groups in the universities.. so our standards have raised? in any case, it was good to see the juniors again.. though i really don't know what to say to them :x the alumni dancers were our juniors.. and i knew a few of them.. the main dancers were our juniors' juniors.. and i barely knew any of them :x guess this year will be the first and last tjc concert i can go to.. coz next time i wouldn't know any of them at all already :x so sad... i feel so OLD and detached from the club.. those dancing days back in tjc feel so far away :( so so far away. i felt really nostalgic watching the curtain call and seeing miss wee again.. it was like yesterday that i was on the stage for reverie II. good old days.. and i doubt i will be in a dance production again :(

and so, i'll be moving out of hall on 7 may. i shall bid my room goodbye ='( though it wasn't a fantastic room with dim lights, poor internet connection and frequent trips (less frequent now). feelings for the room have surely grown over the year.. but definitely not for the toilet so i don't feel that sad moving out afterall. i think i might be coming back to hall 4 next sem, but maybe not to the same room.. anyway, i feel so cheated having spent SO MUCH time on hall activities yet get stupid pathetic points that cannot even guarantee a room for me. i shall not be so dumb next sem if i get to stay in hall again.

should i camp in hall again for 3 weeks during exam period just like last sem? i realise i can't study at home :((( but camping in hall = possibility of going crazy (like i almost did last sem) coz i was just living life on my own.. with minimal human interaction which is somehow worse than being in jail. i'm in such a dilemma! with my tv blown i can't even watch tv in my room anymore so it's kinda less distraction + more loneliness :x

okay nvm, i think i should be studying first.

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